miércoles, 16 de mayo de 2012
A mas de un año
A mas de un año.. regresa el dolor...la desesperación y la angustia.. me siento incapaz de seguir adelante. Se que tengo que respirar profundo pero no puedo.. c me oprime el pecho.. es akaso la frustración de buscarte y no encontrarte?.. todo dice que no.. xk mi corazón dice k si... xk? porque sigo sola?.. k hice mal?? xk es justo k yo este asi.. sola... k kiere la vida de mi??? x favor k c detenga y me recoja.. k me lleve dentro d si..
viernes, 18 de marzo de 2011
El nuevo objetivo d mi vida
He decidido un nuevo objetivo... ser directora d marketing en una empresa importante!!! Alguna vez mi terapeuta me dijo k uno tiene k desarrollar su vida sin esperar hacer junto a alguien. En el momento k llegue esa persona tendrás k armar un enorme rompecabezas kon sus vidas...juntandolas.. pero nuna fusionarlas.. xk sino funcionan las kosas y x algun motivo c separan..no podrás seguir adelante xk todo tiene k ver kon esa otra persona. Y bueno estoy construyendo mi vida en base a mi.. y solo a mi.. y ese es mi nuevo objetivo.. ser una ejecutiva exitosa.. y io c k voy en buen kamino..
jueves, 10 de febrero de 2011
Lo mas sencillo de la vida.. lo mas genial
K puedo decir... después de toda la revolución por la que pase en esta vida... solo x hoy soy feliz... lo mas simple de la vida... lo mas feliz del mundo..
- Helado de chocolate
- Mi pijamita
- Escuchando a los Deftones
Puede k no me sepa la letra d la canción, puede k este despeinada.. pero nada d eso importa.. soy feliz =)
miércoles, 19 de enero de 2011
martes, 18 de enero de 2011
Not so good 2day
Estoy algo angustiada... he visto la lista d posibles personas k puedo konocer.. y la noticia es k existen muchas pero.. x mi bizarro komportamiento seguro ninguna d ellas me volvería a hablar.. depressed... mi estabilidad emocional es taaaan vulnerable aun.. después d todos estos años d medicamentos y terapia. Things are not the way they should be.. estoy emocionalmente rota d nuevo.. why everybody always looks so happy???
martes, 4 de enero de 2011
Y ahora ke???
Baff!! Estoy mega aburrida.. haciendo kuentas.. bla bla bla.. Estaba hablando hace rato kon mi hermanita Adoptiva MaryC kon respecto a ponernos metas en la vida. He visto en Facebook k muchos d mis amigos ya han cumplido los sueños k me platicaban años atras.. y yo??..nada... Pero bueno MaryC me dijo k me pusiera a ver k me gusta y k me gustaría tener d logro en mi vida.. y bueno ahora es lo k estoy haciendo.. veamos komo me va... =)
viernes, 17 de diciembre de 2010
PoleDance!!!
El miercoles fui a mi klase d prueba de poledance en un lugar llamado Yonishakti y woooo!!!! esta genial. Klaro k llegue 20 min tarde xk mi hermana y yo nos perdimos... anote 17.. en vez de 171 jajajaja.. pero al final llegamos y rápido nos integramos a la clase.. algo de calentamiento.. el kual a penas y pude hacer (llevo como 15 años k no muevo ni un dedo) y después a hacer un movimiento en el tubo llamado "Kohala" y bueno io parecia chango xk no me salió nunka el paso... kuando me empezaba a salir c akabo la clase jajaja.. al principio me traumé xk a mi hermana todo le salió super bien.. y io dije "diablos.. kreo k esto no es para mi.. y kada k vengamos a klase me voy a sentir mal xk ella va a hacerlo todo y io no"... pero después lo pensé detenidamente y después pense k esta klase es algo k en verdd kiero hacer y bueno.. puede k lo k ella logra en 2 intentos a mi me llevará 10 mas.. tendré k trabajar muy duro.. pero lo voy a hacer... asi k me inskribi y kompré mi tubo....
Let´s see...
Mi piernita kon mi marka de guerra (un mega moretón) jajajajaja
Let´s see...
Mi piernita kon mi marka de guerra (un mega moretón) jajajajaja
martes, 14 de diciembre de 2010
Todo lo k una baja autoestima puede hacer x ti
Después d todo este tiempo.. aun... mi autoestima esta perdida. No he aprendido nada y dudo mucho k lo aprenda. Tal vez solo debería d akostumbrarme a k las kosas siempre van a ser así para mi. Kreo k tengo demasiado daño en mi inconsciente y no hay manera en este mundo en k pueda solucionarlo. Así k bien.. si no puedo kon él.. me uniré... Siempre estropeare todo lo bueno k puede existir en mi vida y tendré k aceptar kada perdida komo c vaya dando. C k d alguna forma es la manera mas sencilla pero... k mas puedo hacer?? ya intenté luchar kontra ello.. y si el objetivo no c logra.. es peor la kaida... si, tal vez soy mas kobarde d lo k pensaba k era.
viernes, 10 de diciembre de 2010
Día 2 de terapia (sin electroshock) jajaja
Bueno, son las 20:11 hrs, escucho una canción de mi tracklist "girls hate boys". No es realmente que odie a los hombres.. solo que es un "girl power" que por el momento necesito =)
Y bueno... hoy después d unas pequeñas lagrimas... respiro y me siento muy positiva de todo. Se que las cosas van a estar bien y que todo ese dinero que he invertido en terapia y drogas esta funcionando jajajajaja. Es increíble todo lo que he pasado en unos meses o...¿años?.. es como si todo este tiempo mi vida hubiera estado de pausa.. y de repente el mecanismo despierta y comienza a caminar. Veamos que sucede.. =)
miércoles, 8 de diciembre de 2010
Say good bye!
Dave te kiero mucho y t deseo lo mejor.
Ojalá las kosas hubieran sido diferentes pero es momento d k alguien mas me kite el sueño.
viernes, 3 de diciembre de 2010
As 4 2day
Veamos.. es la 1:43 am.. en un rato mas me debo d estar levantando para ir con la otorrino. hmm hoy tome la decisión de eliminar los ultimos rastros d trauma existencial k habían en mi vida .. y bueno.. aki estoy yo.. kon un nuevo comienzo =)
No pido mucho.. solo ser yo , hacerle sentir a la gente k los kiero e intentar ser feliz todos los días.. "keep it simple"
domingo, 15 de agosto de 2010
martes, 29 de diciembre de 2009
So on and on...
domingo, 6 de septiembre de 2009
Wouldn't it be nice
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
The happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Oh Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true (run, run, run)
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
.........................................When will it be the song inside my mind??????
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
The happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Oh Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true (run, run, run)
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
.........................................When will it be the song inside my mind??????
viernes, 14 de agosto de 2009
Minimal affection
Won't denay my minimal affection..
Intersection...
Adjust the glass to see it in bigger shape..
minimal affection...
With one hand to count all u in my paper heart
For u to be carried inside my hand..
Perfection...
Needed more... denayed...
What u have, is what u will always have..
stop....
no more..
just this....
Minimalistic affection...
Intersection...
Adjust the glass to see it in bigger shape..
minimal affection...
With one hand to count all u in my paper heart
For u to be carried inside my hand..
Perfection...
Needed more... denayed...
What u have, is what u will always have..
stop....
no more..
just this....
Minimalistic affection...
martes, 5 de mayo de 2009
Electroshock therapy
Need to shock myself
pinch my arm 2 return reality...
my reality.. be again me
If needed please proceed
electroshock therapy allowed
Untie my strait jacket so long used
Be again me, spread my wide wings,
pinch 2 stars in my eyes 2 see the moon
antidepressive 2 in the morning, 2 in the night
that's ok just leave them in my right hand
pinch my arm 2 return reality...
my reality.. be again me
If needed please proceed
electroshock therapy allowed
Untie my strait jacket so long used
Be again me, spread my wide wings,
pinch 2 stars in my eyes 2 see the moon
antidepressive 2 in the morning, 2 in the night
that's ok just leave them in my right hand
I'll feel the energy goin' through my veins
returnin' myself to me
If needed please proceed
electroshock therapy allowed
domingo, 3 de mayo de 2009
ROUND 3..
This is me.. and this my heart..
No more hate or suffer..
New beginnin' inside my soul...
Finally all is heal
Im done.. Im happy now...
No more hate or suffer..
New beginnin' inside my soul...
Finally all is heal
Im done.. Im happy now...
sábado, 19 de abril de 2008
jueves, 27 de septiembre de 2007
CANSADA
Nena cansada..
nena triste..
x hoy ya no puede mas..
Nena kiere irse hoy a donde las almas caminan
y encuentran la luz..
Donde nena sabe k ya no derramara mas lagrimas
Nena solo kiere deskansar
Nena sola en el mundo espiritual
ahora kree k en verdad esta sola en el mundo
k no hay nadie mas como ella y k la entienda...
kree k jamas alguien la va a poder amar
como ella desea y necesita..
Mi alma gemela esta perdida y jamas
la voy a encontrar...
nena triste..
x hoy ya no puede mas..
Nena kiere irse hoy a donde las almas caminan
y encuentran la luz..
Donde nena sabe k ya no derramara mas lagrimas
Nena solo kiere deskansar
Nena sola en el mundo espiritual
ahora kree k en verdad esta sola en el mundo
k no hay nadie mas como ella y k la entienda...
kree k jamas alguien la va a poder amar
como ella desea y necesita..
Mi alma gemela esta perdida y jamas
la voy a encontrar...
domingo, 26 de agosto de 2007
SOON IM GOING TO DIE
Die.. die.. die..
It's all inside my head
each day.. each hour..
Im getting ready
Im not afraid
I just want everything to end.
Just end..
It's all inside my head
each day.. each hour..
Im getting ready
Im not afraid
I just want everything to end.
Just end..
sábado, 25 de agosto de 2007
NAKED
Ill seduce you
Ill make u climb my dreams
and full all my needs
Taste my skin
and lick my lips
Sweet it all be
Thought too.
Ill just show you
what is all about..
From salt to sweet
Its all about u and my needs...
Inner needs...
miércoles, 22 de agosto de 2007
I WANT TO DIE
Today my only thought is of death..
today I just want to die..
To end with every little suffer that is
inside me..
I´ve lost the dream that someday
everything is going to get better
because in some way
today I know that is not going to happen
Today my tears are stronger that may hope of life
today my suffer has won the battle
Its all a circle and is never going to end
day after day, hour after hour
Its all doomed
and im damed
today I just want to die
martes, 21 de agosto de 2007
HATE
I hate you
I hate you
and hope you adore me
so you can feel in your own flesh
the burns and cuts I've got inside my heart
I hate you
so much that I hope u die and
burn in hell ever after
and that you hope I could be
by yourside to heal your body
Hope a crow take out your eyes
so you will wish mine to describe
the whole world
Hope I could cut your tongue
and you wish to kiss my lips
and feel your blood slipping
through my throat
I hope you die
I hope you die....
I hate you and I hope u disappear
of my memories and dreams
I hate you
and hope you adore me
so you can feel in your own flesh
the burns and cuts I've got inside my heart
I hate you
so much that I hope u die and
burn in hell ever after
and that you hope I could be
by yourside to heal your body
Hope a crow take out your eyes
so you will wish mine to describe
the whole world
Hope I could cut your tongue
and you wish to kiss my lips
and feel your blood slipping
through my throat
I hope you die
I hope you die....
lunes, 20 de agosto de 2007
QUEEN
MUSIC
viernes, 17 de agosto de 2007
TANABATA
Let us be one in this night of a thousand stars
Milkyway falls apart
and naked souls become one
Full moonlight please let it be..
Night of eternity
in the velvet sky
here I am to take my part
in this destiny..
My own destiny..
Let him come to me..
Please thousand stars
glittered night..
Moonlight whispers you
only you...
martes, 14 de agosto de 2007
SAVE ME
I'm not always like this.
It's something I become.
A terrible weakness...in my nature, in my blood.
Save me, oh save me...save me from myself.
Before I hurt somebody else again.
IMPOSSIBLE
Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go
domingo, 12 de agosto de 2007
SUICIDE
miércoles, 8 de agosto de 2007
domingo, 5 de agosto de 2007
KISS by KoRn
Some deny and search for things that never come around
Do I feel like a fool?
The places I have ran to all my life have disappeared
And I owe this all to you
I'm feeling like I'm sinking
And nothing's there to catch me, keep me breathing
What do I have to do?
Why can't this hurt be through?
I'm going head unto
Something I know I will fail
Why can't this kiss be true
Why won't you please let me through?
I don't understand why you always push me away
The last thing I would like to do before I go away
is cry there next to you (next to you)
Cry and talk about the good old days and where they've gone
And now how much I hate you
Ifeel the blood drip off my body as it falls right there
on the ground
EVERYTHIN' THAT COULD HAVE BEEN
There is an art, to fallin' apart,
Just follow steps 1 through 10 and you're done
When you don't know yourself, anymore
It's time to gt out of here
Just take my hand there is nothin' to fear.
Another day is wasted again
and everythin' that could have been
A burden I still bear
Even though you're gone
I'm still holdin' onto
Everythin' that could have been
Eveh though you're gone
I'm still holdin' onto
Everythin' that could have been
Mistakes, I've made a few,
Look at the mess that I've made and you'll see
That things don't always go, as planned
Mistrust, the source of this pain
You say you're angry, there's no one to blame
But you and the choices you've made
I wonder what could have been
Is this the end?
Just follow steps 1 through 10 and you're done
When you don't know yourself, anymore
It's time to gt out of here
Just take my hand there is nothin' to fear.
Another day is wasted again
and everythin' that could have been
A burden I still bear
Even though you're gone
I'm still holdin' onto
Everythin' that could have been
Eveh though you're gone
I'm still holdin' onto
Everythin' that could have been
Mistakes, I've made a few,
Look at the mess that I've made and you'll see
That things don't always go, as planned
Mistrust, the source of this pain
You say you're angry, there's no one to blame
But you and the choices you've made
I wonder what could have been
Is this the end?
viernes, 3 de agosto de 2007
DADDY'S CYCLE
Daddy didn't meant to hurt me
but he did..
Daddy didn't meant to ignore me
while loneliness was my friend
I never deserved daddy
'cuz I was always a bad girl
He never saw inside my eyes
he never knew what was inside my mind
Daddy is now my boyfriend
and everythin will change
He will take me inside and
destiny will change..
jueves, 2 de agosto de 2007
BLACK LONELY SOUL
Creepy sounds come out of my mind
Dark shadows are by my side
Lonely creepy soul..
That's me..
Who's out there?
Who's whisperin' my name?
No body ..
just this lonely creepy soul
Who will be the one to
share this dark folish nights
To cast my fears away
The one with whom I shall die
hand by hand?
Lonely creepy soul..
that's me..
Just me....
Dark shadows are by my side
Lonely creepy soul..
That's me..
Who's out there?
Who's whisperin' my name?
No body ..
just this lonely creepy soul
Who will be the one to
share this dark folish nights
To cast my fears away
The one with whom I shall die
hand by hand?
Lonely creepy soul..
that's me..
Just me....
viernes, 27 de julio de 2007
EMPTY STREETS
"The city feels clean this time of night
Just empty streets and me walking home
To clear my head
And though it came as no surprise
I'm affected more than I had guessed
By what was said
If this loves not meant to be
If a hearts not ready to open
If the naked eye won't see
It's broken.
It's that quiet time before the dawn
And I'm half past making sense of it
Was I wrong?
Should I think to give it all
In a world where not much ever seams
To last long.
If this loves not meant to be
If a hearts not ready to open
If the naked eye won't see It's broken. "
sábado, 21 de julio de 2007
WONDERFUL LIFE
I haven't thought of you
For years you know
Your memory seems to come and go
Our time meant so much to me
Now you can't be found
You were the first to want me
The first to love me
The first to need me
Who was the last to know you
The last to love you
The last to hold you
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
I thought of you again today
Reminding me how with time
I've changed
If you only knew what you gave to me
Now you can't be found
And you were the first I trusted
I learned what love is
When we were just kids
When did you get so lost?
How could you think you'd be better off?
Why'd you have to say goodbye
Thank you for those special moments
You will always be here, in my mind
And did you know you changed my life?
I'm thankful for that time
For years you know
Your memory seems to come and go
Our time meant so much to me
Now you can't be found
You were the first to want me
The first to love me
The first to need me
Who was the last to know you
The last to love you
The last to hold you
It's a wonderful, wonderful life
I thought of you again today
Reminding me how with time
I've changed
If you only knew what you gave to me
Now you can't be found
And you were the first I trusted
I learned what love is
When we were just kids
When did you get so lost?
How could you think you'd be better off?
Why'd you have to say goodbye
Thank you for those special moments
You will always be here, in my mind
And did you know you changed my life?
I'm thankful for that time
10 OF WANDS
heal heal heal..
that's what destiny says...
take time..
take one at a time..
let it do the rest..
I just hope time doesn't end with my life....
that's what destiny says...
take time..
take one at a time..
let it do the rest..
I just hope time doesn't end with my life....
sábado, 14 de julio de 2007
NOT ME
Its almost tomorrow & I still feel like yesterday...
can time go back?
Can I go back?
Im becomin' something else..
not me.. not me..
Its bigger than I can handle..
Please let me understand it..
Im under a cloud of ideas..
not me.. not me..
Where is the light?
where is the road..
not me.. not me..
can time go back?
Can I go back?
Im becomin' something else..
not me.. not me..
Its bigger than I can handle..
Please let me understand it..
Im under a cloud of ideas..
not me.. not me..
Where is the light?
where is the road..
not me.. not me..
miércoles, 11 de julio de 2007
Banshee
martes, 10 de julio de 2007
Aropax
Aropax
Sweet dreams melancholy..
Im gonna take a pill &
let it do the rest
Good bye sadness
good bye madness
Im just gonna be me..
My mind is going so soft
whispers all my world
Sweet dreams melancholy..
Im gonna take a pill &
let it do the rest
Good bye sadness
good bye madness
Im just gonna be me..
My mind is going so soft
whispers all my world
sábado, 7 de julio de 2007
7.7.7
This endless night
my soul is dying
an so is my life...
Deep tears are left
and nothing is going to stay..
My heart is broken
and no one is there to heal
This emptiness is killing
my last breath of life..
I was so wrong
and now I have to pay 4 it all..
where is my life now?
what amd I supposed to do?
I just want to close my eyes
and never wake up..
cuz in my dreams is the only way
you maybe near me..
my soul is dying
an so is my life...
Deep tears are left
and nothing is going to stay..
My heart is broken
and no one is there to heal
This emptiness is killing
my last breath of life..
I was so wrong
and now I have to pay 4 it all..
where is my life now?
what amd I supposed to do?
I just want to close my eyes
and never wake up..
cuz in my dreams is the only way
you maybe near me..
miércoles, 4 de julio de 2007
Track no4
martes, 3 de julio de 2007
Track no3
"I will remember you
Will you remember me
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but cannot say a word
No, we are screaming inside oh, but can't be heard
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, ah you gave me light
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one "
Will you remember me
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but cannot say a word
No, we are screaming inside oh, but can't be heard
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, ah you gave me light
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one "
Sarah Mc Lachlan - I will remember you
lunes, 2 de julio de 2007
domingo, 1 de julio de 2007
Track no1
Its break up time maybe death...
or a renaissance... do u accept the challenge?
Everything will be discovered
and should have to be resolved as clear water
Before everything turns into good
first the realeased should be done
allowing changes take place
Pain and suffer will come alone
Transforming will begin
Its the only way to go on
In order to become one
first should learn to be one.....
or a renaissance... do u accept the challenge?
Everything will be discovered
and should have to be resolved as clear water
Before everything turns into good
first the realeased should be done
allowing changes take place
Pain and suffer will come alone
Transforming will begin
Its the only way to go on
In order to become one
first should learn to be one.....
Hole on it...
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